I think I might be looking at too many blogs or something. Last night I had a horrible nightmare about my jaw surgery. It's actually my third jaw dream this week, and I'm still about a year out from surgery!
The basic gist of the dream was that my OS called and asked if I could come in the next day for my surgery. I am supposed to be there at 12:30 for the 2:30 surgery, but something happens and I come an hour late. Somehow it is okay. Next thing, I am at home recovering, and it is about 4:00 the same day. I say to my dad, "So how long did the surgery take?" He says, "Oh, about 30 minutes. It wasn't as complicated as he thought." Then I go to the mirror, and my face is all swollen, but only on the bottom. Looks like he did only the lower instead of both... Then I go to check out my bite, and find out that instead of a perfect bite, I have a huge underbite because he only moved the lower jaw forward... So I call and ask why he did that, and he said, well your OD can fix that because your lower teeth were still flared out a bit. But in my dream, my OD had done that on purpose so I wouldn't have to have extractions...
The dream was so bizarre because it was sooooo detailed, with bits of information that I have never heard from my OD or OS, and I don't know how my brain even came up with that reasoning.
The dream really brought out all of the emotions and fears that I have about this surgery. I really wish I wasn't dreaming about this so far out. I hate when dreams seem real and it's hard to shake them off.
Oh, well. Just a little vent. Sorry if it's a little emo.
I have heard of so many bloggers having surgery nightmares! I had one myself, I can barely remember it now but I know I wrote a blog about it. It is crazy how much surgery can totally take over your brain. The amount of time I spent thinking about surgery (and still think about it now) is ridiculous.
ReplyDeleteI've had a jaw surgery nightmare, too, so you're not alone. I can't remember the details but it was such a relief to wake up. Like Dani said, you think a lot about surgery. I know I do. All of that thinking is bound to cross over into dream land. Just know that when the day actually comes your OS will know what to do and you will come out the other side without any dramatic and senseless changes to the plan.
ReplyDeleteI had quite a few dreams about the surgery when I was still deciding whether or not to have the surgery - I remember having one where I was being wheeled into the operating theatre but the anaesthetic hadn't worked and I was still partly awake!
ReplyDeletei'm 8 days post-op and have been having nightmares about the surgery i've already had! i think it might be the pain meds i'm on, but jeez. i'll dream that i look in the mirror and my face is black and blue and my nose is careening off to the left and i have teeth missing, and i'm freaking out but everybody thinks it's okay. my swelling is almost gone, but i'll dream that it's all back and about twice as bad as it was the day of the surgery. gah! isn't it awful what our minds will put us through to add to the stress we already have?
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